I've learned something in the past couple months of job searching. In today's society, employers want you to have experience but how do you get that experience? You get it by getting hired! Employers aren't going to hire you though because... uh oh... you don't have experience.
If this was 50 years ago I could find a job easily. I paid $15,000 for a piece of paper, literally. If i don't find a job in the legal field, then I will have to resort to finding some lame job with crap pay. I have a bartending certificate and an LAA diploma and what do I have to show for this? NOTHING!
Do you know all the things that go through my mind during the day and night? Well first, suicide thoughts. I know, that's ridiculous, but I can't live like this anymore. I've gone through my schooling and have nothing to show for it. I keep repeating that but it's hard not to. Second, I don't know where my life is heading and it FUCKING SCARES ME. I need reassurance that something good in my life is going to happen.
You know what that "something good" is? I want to move out, I don't want to be stuck living with my parents anymore. I don't like it. I need to move on and move out. I want a nice car, something fun and reliable. I want a job that makes me feel successful and satisfied. I just want an independent life where I go buy groceries for my home and I go out for long drives with some pretty girl and I want to go out and have fun hanging out with friends at the bar every weekend.
My life right now is not where I wanted it to be and I don't see it changing any time soon. I've hit rock bottom and if it wasn't for bad luck then I wouldn't have any luck.
I need a life preserver.
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